wished upon a dead star.

2008-04-16T23:55:00.002+08:00

the smiles have melted.
they're now FAKES.

2008-03-10T01:53:00.002+08:00

attachment is just okay.
damn rusted.
what can you expect,
no attachment for a year.
alot of things changed.
expectation is fucking sky-high
for someone fucking rusty.
and not surprisingly,
i almost gave up hope.
oh fuck you fiq, fuck you.
___________________________

good to hear that your life is pretty
much unchanged without me.
or maybe even better?
oh i hope so.

well...
i have to accept life as scripted by Him,
to live life without you.

chill fiq. what goes around, comes around.

2008-02-26T23:32:00.005+08:00

its alright.
im okay.
out of sight.
far away.

for what i know,
God is equal.
and he showed,
i dont control your world.

well to me
silence kills.
and takes my heart
long time to heal.
you dont feel
what i feel.
now its down to myself
i want to kill.

shut up fiq. enough said.
you cant change that thing called fate.
try to fill the mind from 9 to 5.
but oh well...
im just that forgotten chapter of your life.

finally.

2008-02-11T18:36:00.000+08:00

finally.
im now attached,
to a Japanese.
nyiahahah.

date of collection: 13th feb.

steady lah, gonna be a
13-full year perhaps.
dont understand?
nevermind.

2008-02-09T02:11:00.000+08:00

if they can
excite you with megawatt smiles,
make you weep with happiness,
make you jump with joy,
make you lose sleep for months...
...perhaps they're better for you.
really.

meanwhile, my ride is my love.
TLC guaranteed.

fucking random.

2008-01-28T01:18:00.000+08:00

i just proved Cupid that he's fucking stupid.
he's supposed to hit me with an arrow,
and hit a girl with the other.
but everytime, he'll lose the latter.
so everytime, i'll end up like this.
stranded.
what the fuck.
go get a machinegun...Stupid Cupid.
____________________________________

yet again...
ive lost my confidence
on that shit called "Love".
(thanks Cupid)
omitting that word for the next 3 years.
fullstop.
___________________________________

walk away. my only option.

2008-01-28T00:36:00.000+08:00

i tried to...

i tried...

but...

silence is all

that i get.

well...

maybe i was right afterall.

im never good enough for anyone.

kind of lost.

2008-01-24T02:21:00.000+08:00

hmmm...
didnt try hard enough?
nevermind...
i'll do my best.

random(s)

2008-01-21T03:09:00.000+08:00

passed my TP. \m/
now headache.
dont know what bike to get.
kepala hotakkk... -.-'
___________________________________

hurt my ankle.
twisted during soccer earlier.
popped tramadol and it still hurts.
fuck that MAT with his crazy tackle.
___________________________________

aisehmannn...
nampaknya aku ni asyik syok sendiri je lah.
ohh well...
apa mau buat...dah tak ada yang berminat...
T_T
___________________________________

so much for a happy new year.

last night.

2008-01-12T12:55:00.000+08:00

went island-wide riding
with the usual suspects last night.
many places, playing corners.
cant remember where.
enjoying time while it lasts.
got some matters cleared off my head,
which bugs me for that past year. is it?
thanks alot to them. \m/

set for attachment on 25th feb '08.
and my TP test is next wednesday.
i need a bike for attachment lah sia!
nevermind, INSYA'ALLAH!

be strong fiQ, headstrong.
focus...focus...hocus pocus.
okay whatever.
and hey, i miss my sister.

ohh yeah, holla 2008. \m/

2008-01-05T01:01:00.000+08:00

holla 2008...
okay im late for this, i know. pfft.
time zoomed off freaking fast ey?

2007...
(at random.)

turned 20...
pushing through school...
learnt to curb my temper...
made more crazy friends...
maintain my badut-like self...
burnt hell lot of $$ at BBDC...buay song le!!
and made my heart go dusty after 1 year...
hahahah.

2008...and resolutions mister?
(at random too.)

shit, im turning 21 lah...
getting long-service award for 4yrs in poly...
TP-test on 11th feb...
yeah 11th feb, sounds familiar ey? -_-'
it better be a good day lah...Insya'allah.
lose some kilo-weights? same as last years'. lols.
stay in contact with my usual gila-monsters, a sure MUST!
be a good road-user...try not to exceed speed-limit...
...i'll try, i'll try. hurhurhur.
endure the upcoming hell of PRCP...yeah shit my ass off.
stop smoking? well i can smell it coming to an end... *sniff sniff*

the next could be the last.

2007-12-01T00:09:00.000+08:00

now i think i know

what those words

actually meant.

whichever preferred...

call it an instinct?

a sixth-sense?

gut-feeling?

or smart-ass?

hahahs...

...bodoh ah lu fiq, seriously.

*sepaks & terajangs*

well relax fiq...

...fuckin' things happen

for a fuckin' reason.

compose yourself and

jolly well cheer up idiot.

___________________________

anyways, movie yesterday

with uncle sa'ab

and brader mahes,

after BBDC.

HITMAN.

my type of movie.

headshots, blood, violence.

more entertaining than watching

Barney the Dumb Dino.

*double-thumbs up*

___________________________

at the losing point, and very happy.

okay wait, im lying. ppfftt.

not in the best of self.

2007-11-01T01:53:00.000+08:00

i think i need some
help in relation to
my insomnia problem.
sleep-pattern just wont
change since last exam period.
ASS.

popping in pills...
and piriton just tastes like M&Ms.
fuck. si beh jia lat.
__________________________________

i somehow...

could feel my shitful-days
approaching very soon...
real soon...

PS: oh anyways, one of the lecturers in school
made me go hopping-mad recently.
how nice, NOT.

UNtitleD.

2007-10-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

kepala pistols.

si beh tired.

worked every weekday.

clocking 36hrs for

this week itself.

tsk tsk tsk.

nvm 2 days only

for next week,

tues & wed.

and that's it.

oh anyways,

been practising

choco-cakes at home.

gonna be a choco-day

for euu soon... = ))

???

2007-10-24T23:56:00.000+08:00

ermm...where do i stand actually?

0319hrs.

2007-10-18T03:19:00.000+08:00

0319hrs.

drop dead tired...
...post 12-hour shift.
body aches.
tired legs.
but haiyaa,
still cant sleep.
and im having class
at 9am tmr.
great.

expecting to graduate late.
with the later batch of devils...
...when i turn 22?!? T_T
whathefool.

i miss euu lah. how?

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2007-09-06T02:27:00.000+08:00

0344hrs.

cant sleep, not the time yet perhaps.

turned nocturnal ass since exam period.

lols.

so a little bit of an update.

well...

life's pretty normal.

work is fun with numbskull individuals.

hahahahs.

but fcuk im damn pissed with my schedules.

asked for full-shift, ended up

having 5-to-closing on all days. knnbccb.

nvm enough, no more closing-duty

from next week onwards.

ramadan mth coming, collection

pahala lagi mulia beb!! =D

___________________________________

and oh going for practs with Ali Setan aka Ghaz.

muahahah.

targeted duration: 4mths. achievable?

______________________________________

personally gave 2 of my surgical scissors

to her over the weekend, since she lost hers.

** tsk...tsk...tsk...

i dont know what to say

if u lose them again eh...

...gigit u baru tau. **

anyways, miss you already.

______________________________________

till we meet again someyear...

2007-08-26T15:40:00.000+08:00

well...well...well...
time for a little update eh.

not going for any CA.
working my ass off for 8 weeks.
yes, including ramadan month.
so im expecting myself to lose weight.

gonna miss them all,
all of them...
especially you.
but heck,
i doubt you feel anything though...

nvm uh...to all my nursing comrades,
have fun with your postings...
...till we meet again someyear.

@ 0413hrs, this thing keeps playing in my head...

2007-08-15T00:40:00.000+08:00

sebelum kau langkah pergi kasih

lihat dulu ke wajahku

tenung tajam mataku

dapatkah kau memahami aku

sebelum kau kata putus, tunggu

dengarlah penjelesanku ini

rayuanku kepadamu

jangan terlalu ikutkan hati

cintaku janganlah kau pergi dariku

janganlah kau tinggalkan aku

ku masih memperlukan kamu

cintaku seandainya kau terguris hati

seandainya kau terluka lagi

maafkanlah diriku

i just dont understand... (-_-')

2007-08-09T03:19:00.000+08:00

in the near-afternoon...

...u miss-called.

i called u back.

we talked.

we 'quarreled'.

we laughed.

u asked for my help.

immediately, i agreed.

i came down.

i saw u.

i looked at u.

but...

...u cared less.

u screamed,

u laughed...

...like as if i wasnt there!

fine...

...moved away,

joined the guys.

smoked.

texted u; but no reply.

so i walked further.

star-gazing,

alone.

then i came back.

again im invisible.

i sighed, BIG sigh.

i looked up.

i asked Him,

what's all this???

mental & emotional challenge?

or mental & emotional torture?

time passed,

again alone.

while u left,

without telling me.

i texted u again.

but u appeared happy.

BIG sigh, again.

who the shit am i to u??

oh well months passed.

but hell that's FAST!!

from being first in mind,

went down to the last.

that's always the case.

over the years,

that's my fate.

nevermind.

its okay.

God is everything.

He gives justice,

He gives equality.

ermmm...
heck.
well that's just a story...

...about me.

and oh,
Happy 42th Birthday...
...Singapore.

2007-07-08T11:37:00.000+08:00

sorry for the growing cobwebs on the corners of the blog, busy lately...with school, work schedules, final year projects, etc.

so far...

- school's hell...especially NS5 'cause no pract module is the killer blow. @#$% lah.
- work is okay, getting station rotations like crazy. doing the grill is the worst. (-_-')

- FYP is ermm below par...its hard to get participation from public to do the surveys, spare 5mins only mah...NABEII!!

- got fever for a few days, lowered immune system due to stress i suppose.

- having lesser bed-time talks with Missy R also. i finish work at 10, thats the earliest...whereas she's asleep by the time i reach home. AISEYYY... *slaps forehead*

anyways, dad gave me the 'Green Light' for me to take my bike license...after months of mom&dad debating over me taking car-license first. ermmm...like WTF?!?

so...im gonna work and save up. wanna take a fast-game license next semester, and grab myself a bike before PRCP. woots. ; )

well...the next update will come when i've time aite. cheeriosss!!

0512hrs.

2007-05-19T16:25:00.000+08:00

i miss you...

more than yesterday,

but lesser than tomorrow. =))

0426hrs.

2007-05-06T00:46:00.000+08:00

i think im:

confused.

lost.

dead??

and yes, i have to agree ignore therapy works the best.

good for u then.

have a nice day people. cheerios.

ive only got MYSELF to blame.

2007-05-01T13:25:00.000+08:00

ive got to do something about myself.

i have to solve my problems...

but the seed to all problems is just me.

perhaps think more, talk less...

... for speech is Silver, silence is Gold.

2007-04-28T09:47:00.000+08:00

im just a FRIEND afterall...

Recently i...

2007-03-29T18:22:00.000+08:00

well well well...
kind of busy lately. so no entries. hurhurhur.

recently i...

1) went out for movie with missy R. =))
watched TMNT, rating 3.5 of 5.
(payed more attention to each other i suppose. nyahahah)

nevermind, there'll be more to come.

*winks*

2) had alot of GL meetings and stuffs to be finalised.

alot of shits also happened along the way. tsk tsk tsk.

and oh alot of pinches aimed at me. khekhe. =p

3) rot my way on weekends.

put on weight instead of losing them. @#%-ING HELL!!

enjoy life like there's no tomorrow,

cause final year approaching and hectic schedule for me.

4) i tend to miss her more on weekends. lol. XD

in a few days/weeks time, i...

1) gonna have a few more GL meets to go.

2) have the trial camp this coming friday.

3) go more movies with her. ahacks. XD

4) collect money from my debtors. nyiahahah.

5) the FOC camp itself, from 10 apr-13apr.

6) school reopens on the 17 apr...GODDAMMIT!!

@#$HOLE!! %^*&-ING HELL!! AARRGGH!!

- END -

what to watch?!?!?

2007-03-20T02:29:00.000+08:00

any suggestions for a good movie?

ermmm...for 2?
one a girl can enjoy watching?

i heard 300 is boring though effects-wise, its brutal.

Sa'ab-Barney told me Messenger is nice.

kukubird la. my brain cells cant make out which movie

is best worth the money.

for suggestions, please tell me over msn. thanks. =D

2007-03-15T17:39:00.000+08:00

thank god i passed all my modules for this semester.

but hell awaits me next year. sadded.

ive learnt something from someone...

not to hate all roses just because im scratched by a thorn. =)

2007-03-04T08:51:00.000+08:00

what does it mean if i say i miss someone.

im SCREWED la siol.

2007-02-11T01:17:00.000+08:00

fuckcufuck...i screwed my paper.
thanks to burst pipe-like FLU
and 40.1deg FEVER.
well i can possibly see...
i can now bid farewell to NP.

to all my battling nurses,
good luck to all your papers.
if i were to fail and go for NS,
i'll try to be back in nursing @NYP.
hmmm...by then im like 23 or 24.
goddammit. im screwed.

anyways, i like this song. kenapa...

2007-01-28T16:24:00.000+08:00

Sebelum ku kenali mu
Hidupku cukup dan suka-duka
Tak pernah ku sangka
semuanya akan berubah
Dikau bagaikan cahaya,
bagi jiwa ku ini
Tak mungkin ku lupa katamu
kan sentiasa di sisi
Bagaikan satu kisah cinta
kita berdua ke mana
Asyik berpegangan tangan
orang lain dilupakan
Apa terjadi, diriku ini
masih tertekan
Hati dilukai setelah
janji ditunaikan
Tiap kali ku fikir, tiada guna bersedih
Rakan-rakan katakan
buang masaku cintai
Dikau punca pedihku,
tiada baik darimu
Tiada langsung yang benar dalam
ungkapan bibirmu

Kenapa harus ku bercinta
Kenapa ku begini
Kenapa harus ku tanggung semua
Kenapa harus ku bercinta
Kenapa ku percaya
Kenapa aku diperbodoh kasih

Tak mungkin ku lupa kali pertama bersua
Tak sangka, dikau kan menjadi pedih
yang kan dalami jiwa
Siang malam termenung, sedih
memakan hati
Tak pernah ku ingat ku boleh diluka
begini
Namun ku cekal hatiku,tuk melupakanmu
Ku tahu kau begitu
Malas ku nak rayu, buang tenagaku
Kau takkan mendengarku
Selamat tinggal oh kasih
Janganlah iri hati
Hidup baru kan mula bila terbitnya
mentari

Kenapa harus ku bercinta
Kenapa ku percaya
Kenapa harus ku diperbodohkan
Kenapa harus ku merayu
Kenapa ku percaya
Kenapa harus ku dikecewakan kasih

Kenapa harus ku bercinta
Kenapa ku percaya
Kenapa harus ku diperbodohkan
Kenapa harus ku merayu
Kenapa ku bercinta
Kenapa harus ku pegang janjimu

Kenapa harus ku merayu
Kenapa ku bercinta
Kenapa harus ku diperbodohkan
Kenapa harus ku percaya
Kenapa ku bercinta
Kenapa harus ku pegang janjimu
kasih...

Sekian lama telah ku simpan
rasa ini di hati
Baru kini ku berani tuk mengatakan
oh gadis
Dikau punca segala, kepedihan di hatiku
Tak ingin lagi ku lihat wajahmu
di hadapanku

2007-01-27T15:49:00.000+08:00

ive thought of the date
to commemorate the death of this blog.
just wait and see. anyways, the tagboard wil still be here.
and so are the links and shits about me.
take care people. cheerios.

goodbye close-to-nothing.

2007-01-14T00:11:00.000+08:00

i think im gonna close down this blog.
may be temporary or permanent.
i'll state the date of closure
when the time is up.
cheerios.

fuck love. i wanna kill Cupid.

2007-01-11T22:55:00.000+08:00

if Cupid is sitting beside me now,

i would have fucking killed him

i wanna tear off his so-called heart with my fists.

i wanna spray his gray matter on my walls.

im on my old kill-mode.

hahahah. =D

exams in 4 weeks now,

and ive started revising bit by bit.

seems like im gonna bury myself in books more.

at least it fills up my intracranial space with facts,

rather than crap shits called LOVE.

harrkkptuihh!! fuck your way to hell Cupid.

to Miss you-know-who-you are:

it's okay. i know my capabilities. i know my limits.

hell i have to move on. ive given up on shit love anyways.

and glad to know ure very much happy with your man.

gracias...gracias...gracias. cheerios.

all the best.

2007-01-07T14:10:00.000+08:00

god is simply testing my

mental strenght is suppose.

just imagine, im having dreams

about her for 2 consecutive nights.

no-no. for those wild minds,

they're not wet dreams alright.

heck they're just dreams.

and those dreams wont come true.

it wont happen in reality for sure,

but at least it happened in my dreams. =D

i kindof miss the talks.

miss the jokes and laughters.

oh well, gone are the days.

gonna let her enjoy her young life,

with her man in armour.

back to square one.

2007-01-05T00:18:00.000+08:00

i have only me.

just me and my shadow.

but i'll try to be happy,

and hide all my sorrows.

now i have a big problem,

and it's making me worry.

what the fuck is wrong with me?!

haizzz..haizzz..haizzz.

this year,

i've made an aim.

to be all different,

and never be the same.

ohh hell its becoming clear

and it'll never change,

that love is not my game.

i think its time
for me to go.
far away from u.
'cause i believe so,
that i'll never have u.

and ohh i've just learnt this..

..not to hunt what i cant possibly kill.

dot. dot. dot.

2007-01-03T20:12:00.000+08:00

i could feel it coming to an end,

even before it actually started.

goodbye 2006. hello 2007.

2007-01-01T17:38:00.000+08:00

gone is 2006.
a year full of hits and shits.
eh heck, the latter make the most of it.
screw 2006.
chiong ahead, and never look back.

hello 2007.
a new resolution,
a new vision.
just be good.
be good.
need to replace
whatever that's gone to waste.
gonna try to defy fate,
by hitting good grades.
jia you..jia you!!

2007.
the year im turning 20. (-_-)'
well gonna live up to it.
yeahhh...

be a better boyfriend,
IF i somehow manage to have a girlfriend. XD

dreammm...zzz...dreammm...zzz

2006-12-30T16:48:00.000+08:00

i dream the same dream
just last night
those walnut eyes
they burn so bright
i see her smile
spread across her cute face
in the blink of an eye
my heart starts to race
if i could only tell u
what i really feel
im not pretending
this is for real
id give u the world
if it was mine to give
write ur name in the stars
to love u, as long as i live
if im given a choice
to breathe or to love u
id use my very last breath
to say, "i love u"
but hell im so scared to tell u
damn afraid u'll walk away...

i dream...

what if...dot dot dot.

2006-12-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

what if i loved someone?
but she didn't know i loved her.
what if that person didn't know i existed?
how could i explain this feeling?
what if i tried to write how i feel?
what if she didn't read it?
what would i do then?
how could i go on?
how could i live?
how could i tell her or even show her?
but for some odd reason if she did read it...
how would i react?
how could i react?
how would i feel?
why would i feel so scared?
the only thing i can think of is...
is this feeling i have LOVE or LUST?
but how could i love them if they didn't care?
why would i care if it makes me feel better about myself?
why should i care what she thinks of me?
should i regret this feeling?
or should i go with it?
please someone help me with this problem i have.

2006-12-21T18:21:00.000+08:00

isolating myself away from love.

'cause im gona be a no-good boyfriend.

'cause no-one can understand me.

'cause im a no-brainer.

'cause im mainly full of nonsense and...

...the list goes on and on.

hahahah. =D

2006-12-20T21:03:00.000+08:00

the posting's getting better each day.
entertained all kinds of kids,
both the demons and angels alike.
the highlight? BABIES.
how i love to hold them siaaa...hahahah.
the way they winced their faces,
crying melodiously till they sleep in my arms,

their sweet newborn smell...
wahhh sialaaa...i want my own siaaa!!

wahahahah. XD

aarrgghh...aint she cute?

the demonic side of me.

Saturday- Part TWO

2006-12-17T15:44:00.000+08:00

continuation...

buy dinner at BK while some go dunno where,
then and all proceed to the "arena-like" seats.
sit down. makan. chit-chat. laugh. and left at 10pm.
took 963 back with gegerl, nesh , alip and clare.

nadia made a surprise appearance at the bustop.
goodness, she made her way from jurong to my area,
waited another 40mins just for me.
aisehmannn...soo touched la!! hahahah.
never in my life a girl has done it for me siaaa... =D

so she followed me home.
and oddly, everyone's asleep...
coz i expected my mom to be watching soccer.
so put down my barang-barang, went online for awhile
and then stroll down to BPP 7-eleven to buy her smokes.
chit-chat again. kena screened by polizei. laugh-laugh.
stayed around till 6plus and send her home.
by the time reached her place,
i can barely open my eyes la. XD
so took a short nap, bathe and back home.

now...

played dota over hamachi again. lost badly. damn.
no mood la actually, coz attachment starts tomorrow!!
fuckkk!! i going paeds ward sumore...nabeyyy!!
supposed to play dota with the rest at bukit timah.
but raining bitches and pussies uhh,
so most prolly im not going. * sighhh *
thank goodness 1st day afernoon shift, same as gegerl.
hahahahah. =D

that's all folks.update some time later.

you want me.
you want us.
but i cant guarantee,
that "us" can last.

i know you love me.
i know you will.
but trust me,
my heart hasnt healed.

love isnt a toy.
love isnt a game.
once its broken,
it'll never be the same.

Saturday- Part ONE

2006-12-17T03:09:00.000+08:00

fuckin' hell its 3am now.
im damn tired and sleepy,
but shit i just cant get to sleep. nabeyyy...

so i went to siloso
with the fellow nurses.
thought of asking nadia along,
but she working. damnn.
okay back to the story..
a superly-hot day.
went in by cab
since the bus queue is fuckin' long,
about as long as the Hello-Kitty craze.
then swim, eat, swim, eat.
got thigh cramps and muscle pulls whole
lot of times while swimming.
fuck the agony, trying to keep myself
above water with both legs affected.
went off at around 8pm,
proceed to vivo-shitty.
well nothing special,
its just 2x the size of Marina Square.
dont know why ppl say vivo so nice.
harkptuihhh!!

to be continued..

2006-12-13T17:36:00.000+08:00

studying.
and dota-ing.
damn hooked to the latter.
fuckkk.

guess what.
being sleep-deprived,
i still managed to wake up early
at 7am to do jogging.
well on a quest to lose kilos.
though baby-carrots says "fat is sexy".
hahahah. =D

now it's raining pussies and bitches.
hopefully saturday's all clear,
going sentosa with the usual fucka-fellas.
plus my sister is coming too. hahahah.

okayy time's up,
need to study more.

TO BE CONTINUED...

Cinta Tiga Segi

2006-12-13T17:10:00.000+08:00

bertahun sudah ku menunggu dirimu
akhirnya kau menjadi milikku
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random entry.

2006-12-09T00:53:00.000+08:00

so well, my younger bro Samurai,
is coming home later from India.
expected to touch down at 6am.
3hrs from now and im still at her place.
damn. but heck i wont be at airport,
coz i have soccer at 8.30am.
AARRGGHH NABEYY!!

invited to her bro's chalet,
on the 22nd for his birthday.
fcuk. what the heck im gonna get him?
any suggestions? for a 21yr old kid.
hmmm. a blow-up doll? bwahahahah. XD

Hell in a Cell.

2006-12-05T01:49:00.000+08:00

been dota-ing since the past week.
one by one, each of us got hooked.
even sis aishah's playing well. =D
well, post-common test mahhh...
LOL.

anyways, some of us having attachment.
mine starting on dec18. ficken.
now im bored to the core.
rotting as each second crawls.
and guess what, it's only the first day la!!
wahlaooo...more or less like hell in a cell sia.

meeting her tomorrow,
after her school ends.
but shit la, she's working at 6pm.
aarrgghh...nabeyyy!!
please...please...give her a day-off man.
been quite some time since we went out sia...
haizzz.

gonna catch some sleep now...ZZZzzzz...

just a counter-post to "no more".

2006-12-03T23:27:00.000+08:00

im lazy to type a whole lot of bullshit.

so to shorten it up...

here goes...

firstly,

you aint happy with me now,

cant it be told directly to me?

is it a MUST to be on a blog?

go put on papers then.

its not a matter of growing up.

the whole thing is to make you feel how i feel,

how much heartpain inflicted on me.

but oh hell, bet you dont realise that.

never.

not even while i was with you.

and fcuk, scrap the smiles.

since you hate to.

now i dont need it.

you DONT have to smile.

even if you want to,

which i doubt so,

what's the point of smiling...

if the smiles aint sincere?

felt relief to break up with me huh.

well congratulations.

you're earned your freedom.

so heck.

i wont bother you anymore.

i can leave your life completely.

i can be a total stranger to you.

go ahead, erase our history.

if you do hate me,

just say it.

dont lie to yourself.

2006-11-26T00:45:00.000+08:00

AARRGGHH!! CCB!!

im having fever and sore-eyes when common test's coming this monday. (-_-)'

whenyourlipstouchedmine.

2006-11-21T22:55:00.000+08:00

friday&saturday...

had our pit at west coast after school on friday, as a mark of celebration for alif hill's and mahes' birthday, on 15th & 16th respectively. happy birthday to my two bros!! hahahah. so those who came were the usual us guys, my sis aishah, some year 1s, Laalaa and Ms Kai Li. bottles up...a 2-litre Chivas and a 1-litre Absolut went dry in about 2hrs. Kai Li brought some Bailey's, and Manjen said it's nice. AARRGGHH!! CCB!! hahahah. supposed to stay but hell we went off around 5-plus due to myriads of sandflies, and laalaa went earlier 'cause of abd pains. haizzz...

sleepover at sab's place. supposingly had GL training at 11am, but heck we take our own sweet time la. so much that we even had enough time to cook-up stuffs for the other GLs to munch on. hahahah. reached school around 1pm, didnt join in the games as ive no change of clothes plus my fractured metacarpel. so the terror-pair raihanah abdul ghaffar and aishah azeni chased me around, purposely smeared mud by brutal grindings and molest. my jeans got damn dirty la sial...pantats!! swear im gonna fcuk idiotic rai one of these days!! muahahah. *evil laughter*

so chilled for awhile after training, and home sweet home...

sunday...

went out with naDia to her cousin's pit at ECP, along with gila-gila abg iran and his fiance. again did the normal things people do at a pit like you know what lah. didnt go out to the sea though, 'cause Laalaa told me its jellyfish-season. hahahah. ouhh yarr, and the main highlight there...2 botts of JDs...wooo, hell thanks i didnt drink. =D)

reached home quite late after sending her home...but the thing is, am i falling for her?

hmmm. anyways, really a day of beautiful moments with you. ;-)

perfectly sealed...

...whenyourlipstouchedmine.

ouhh yarr...you dont have to entertain me, for i understand why. you complained of heartpain, but do you know how much heartpain i endured for you? oh hell. like what you've said, you want it to be done and over with. so yeahh, i'll be a complete stranger to you now. it's still the beginning, he sees no flaw. but sooner or later, he'll understand how i feel. all the best. cheerios.

niente è più dolce di voi...heheheh.

2006-11-16T23:27:00.000+08:00

again, went out with nadia darling last midnight. ermmm..actually with her whole family plus her brother's fiance la..lol. we went to the usual al-azhar, felt abit weird uh 'cause her dad belanja everything...damn paisehh siaaaa!! hahahah. abang iran went off earlier with his fiance, while the rest of us sit there chit-chat till almost 3am. got back to her place for awhile, and thought of taking a cab home from there but her dad asked me to sleepover..of course damn surprised with what he said la duh. hahahah. first he already belanja, then sleepover..wooo what a great start!! heheheh. *evil grins*

ehh i'll continue next time...

...she's calling me now daaa!!

cheeriosss!! =D

nadia's her name.

2006-11-12T18:13:00.000+08:00

went out with nadia yesterday after soccer. and the fun yet brutal part is asking her out the old-fashion way. hahahah. went to her place, meet her mom, and ask for permission. it's not easy i tell you!! im supposed to convince her mom, but i got interviewed instead. once she's satisfied, only then she let nadia go. grrr!! hahahah.

so we went to play pool at jurong first as its freaking early. i thought she cant really play, sekali she's good la. hahahah. ate lunch and chilled at starfucks @ PS, and then watch "Step Up". tried my best not to sleep throughout the whole show. hahahah. the movie's okay la, but the shit part is it's storyline is almost the same as "Save the Last Dance". *yawns*

after movie, she brought me to this park somewhere in jurong uh before going home. chit-chat whole lot of things...and another confession from her, of wanting me real badly. hmm...what on earth did she see in me?? i bet there are whole lot of guys who are wayyyyy much better than me...which is like duh la. hahahah. anyways, i just remained silent when she said that. i dont know what to say to her, without hurting her as well. haizzz...

reached home at 9pm, popped in 4 tabs of piriton and 2 panadols, and zzzzzzzz...

2006-11-08T15:03:00.000+08:00

heyy people, im in school and initially supposed to do my project now. but heck lah, later can do 'cause i cant concentrate uh. hahahah.

well didnt go home yesterday, went out whole night to celebrate yi ting's birthday. HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY YI TING!! enjoyed my time there la basically, play dumb games and stuff. Manjen didnt get drunk uh, damn wish he did!! lol. slept at around 2 or 3am sia. hahahah. after that i went straight to school uh, but hey i did bathe alright. =)

nadia called me up last night at 1am, just at the very moment i feel like dozing off. hahahah. quite surprised lah when i see her name blinking on my phone, pasal dah lama menghilang, alih-alih je call. so we just talked crap and make stupid jokes, as per normal lah. heheh. somehow, she got a bad flu and fever. but heck, she didnt rest at home and wanted to meet me at her workplace at 7pm, ade surprise katenye...penat laaa.
(-_-)'

she broke-up with her boyfriend yesterday, no wonder she's so down and didnt talk much in school. okay wait, let's call her miss H. hahahah. Mr Gangsta told me to grab the opportunity since its there...but for now, give her time and space to recollect herself la dey. maybe the time will come...hahahah. furthermore, its too early and im trying my best not to be in a relationship so soon. my old wound hasnt healed, let alone make another one. i want to know her more first, her likes and dont likes, etc. i cant bring myself to be in another relationship and end up hurting her...NO WAY!! :))

2006-11-05T14:03:00.000+08:00

those blow-me-away smiles...

=))

2006-11-04T02:31:00.000+08:00

enjoying life...

...heheheh. =))

gone are the days.

2006-10-28T09:10:00.000+08:00

im super-shagged, really.

feel like removing my head from the vertebrae and give it a rest sia.

okay well, have been controlling my food intakes to the max. im making sure the 5kgs i shed during puasa wont return, plus another 5kgs added on. it happened before alright...hahahah.

hmm...what the hell i did yesterday? wake up at 7am, dont know why that early. went online for awhile, but see nobody la...duh. switched off that damn PC 'cause im pretty bored. circled around the house like making a bee-line, landed in front of the tee-vee and ended up playing with my stupid x-box till 10am. went lecture for 2hrs...BORING LA SIOL!! ouh yarr, i thought she didnt go for lecture, she hid herself well from my view la...hahahah. sms-ed her, she turned back and smile...and the asshole me melted by her smile, smiled back like a jackass...

after lecture, thought of meeting her for awhile, but i dont know where she POOFFED to...*sedihhh!!*. proceeded to Alvron, play around for 50mins and moved to al-azhar with ghazaly aka Gangster Jintan, yasmin aka Ah Moy and gailey aka Xiao Mao. talk-talk, laugh-laugh, eat-eat. Miss 75 joined in at the later part, talk again, then balek laaa...

im not going any raya-ing this weekend, plain lazy lah. going out raya only next week with my buddies, siap pakai bas wooo!! habisla rumah-rumah kena serang by 20 big-kids...the attack of miss siti's place will be the highlight laaa...JENG JENG JENGGG!! XD

i guess its time for me to move on completely.

it seems the changes i've made wont bring you back.

all the best and good luck with you and him...

well whoever he is la...hahahah.

halermakk...long one daaa.

2006-10-23T00:41:00.000+08:00

firstly to nadia,

please dont fall for me, please. honestly my wound has not healed, or probably wont. you deserve someone much better, seriously. you can ask my dear ex, ana herself, for how bad i am in a relationship. sorry if i hurt you in any way nad. and i hope it wont hinder our friendship. see you around...

secondly to ana,

sorry that i said "heyy, i miss us" the other day. hmm yeahh, i do know you wont come back surely and i understand that real well. i just hope i wont be your nightmare...

thirdly to Laalaa,

happy 16th birthday girl!! finally, you're legal to...well you know what. wahahahah...kite main-main yek, nanti raya boleh mintak maaf. khekhe. keep in contact aite bebeh...

lastly to you reader,

whoever you are, yes you lah. i want to wish you mangkuks and joyces Salam Aidilfitri and Happy Deepavali, maaf zahir dan batin ye. take good care of yourself ah, dont overload your bellies, and dont get drunk aite. wahahahah. sooo...enjoy!!

2006-10-19T19:39:00.000+08:00

damn, my brain wasnt switched to "school-mode" yet. well, 1st week mah. hahahah. then another tough thing is, i always get gastric attacks. peyyy perittt!! so obviously my concentration in lectures + classes is much affected. ass la...

well...saw her once in school just now while about to go down that stairs. she smiled, i smiled back obviously. but heck, i just walked straight heart pounding and somehow those memories of us came storming in one by one. its damn hard for me la, haizzz. seems like im losing afterall...

she said i looked different. i grow horizontally? my hair? or darker maybe? i dont know la...only God knows.

okayy im going tarawih now. back later.
cheerios.

2006-10-14T00:16:00.000+08:00

i feel like closing down this stupid blog...

'cause i think...
- im getting bored
- cant be bothered
- and nobody's reading...hahahah.

so yeahh...see how lah. cheerios.

2006-10-09T00:17:00.000+08:00

i need a haircut...

real badly.

2006-10-04T11:14:00.000+08:00

im rotting well at home, since the past few days in fact.
damn nothing to do lah as puasa killed the options.
haizzzzz...

oklah so far ive lost 5kg, maybe to the daily full-tarawihs,
puasa plus not having buka like a pig. hahah.
hoping to lose more lah, but i know i wont be thin. hurhur.

ouhh yarr...im due to teach tuition to some sec school freaks
in the evening today, well finally something to do.
exam dah start, sekarang baru nak lincah kadok
korang carik aku ehh...wahahah.

tomorrow im going to break fast outside with my fellow buddies,
most likely at al-azhar lah, geylang packed uhh.
but before that, im gonna cut my hair with sab.
he said his hair is abit long.
padahal rumput lagi panjang dari rambut kau sab. wahahah.
aku nye pasal rimas ade mop kat atas kepale, pey panasss!!
so yeahh gonna chill there till late lah, as usual. heheheh.

klah till here.
i'll update more later.
cheerios.

2006-10-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

okayyy im back.

damn. long time since i last appeared in front of my pc, and typing is a lil awkward. biase lah, just repaired my pc mahh.
hahahah.

life is good. im moving on well. i have to move on when something called 'love' is no longer there. i took it as im just not good enough for her la, and im one step below the hierarchy class. thanks alot to those who are giving me endless emotional support, you fellas know who you guys are. grateful and lucky to have you crazy-heads. gracias gracias.

to those who've been asking me whether im looking for someone new, the answer is a flat No.
well for many months at least la. the reason is simple, i just cant be bothered.

actually, nothing much uhh. hahahah.

cheerios.

2006-07-28T23:27:00.000+08:00

i seriously need to do anger-management.

damn.

2006-07-16T22:14:00.000+08:00

okayy...after 3 week-plus of absence, time for me to at least splat some shits in here.

school's the same.
the BOBs are great, and crazy as per normal.
i still hate that old bitch angeline lim guat hiong, for obvious reasons.
damn lot of infos and blah-blahs to be cemented in my head.
and i need to buck up, NOW.

family's all okayy...
...apart from the occasional bust-ups with my bros. hahahah
mom's getting abit sick lately due to that flu-season.
dad's busy with his work.
so yeahh...

my dear sweethearrt, Ana...
we're going on pretty well.
loveable as usual. akhaa. =D
but of course, we had quarrels too. (-_-')
ouhh yarr...i miss her bad. hahah.

that's all for now.
shitting again some days later. hahah.

2006-06-23T00:39:00.000+08:00

blog is inactive...

...for now at least.

i love her. she loves me. we love us.

2006-06-09T21:59:00.000+08:00

yes. were back as one.

farhana bte zainuddin...

...i love euu soo much!!

muaaakkxx!!

2006-05-22T22:04:00.000+08:00

i admit it.

yes, i admit im feeling insecured

when she make new guy friends.

yes, im saying that.

why?

duh. my feelings are still there,

and still strong.

but i dont know about hers la.

but heck, i cant stop her la obviously,

'cause we've already parted since last october.

im not surprised if we wont get back together

if i were to ash her again some time later.

as days goes by, i feel like pulling "LOVE" out of my dictionary.

why?

it can cause tragedy.

i gave you a chance, but you threw it away.

2006-05-06T23:06:00.000+08:00

first, you wanted me back.
i said i'll think about it, not 'forget it'.

i think through...
then i asked you.
you gave me 'no'.
'cause you dont wanna hurt me anymore.
what crap.

i gave you a chance,
for us to start afresh.
but you threw it away.
now i've understood,
and the fact does stand,
that nobody wants me.
hurhurhur.

heck la. LOVE is SHIT.
that's all about it. im off.

2006-05-04T22:54:00.000+08:00

since last night, and till now, ive been thinking about it.

about you.

about us.

i just cant stop, seeing you almost everyday in school simply explains it all.

yeah, maybe i should give you a chance.

but will you accept me?

i dont know.

lets wait and see...

2006-05-03T23:54:00.000+08:00

he's in a world of his own.

move on.

- that's the best you can do
when nobody needs you -

2006-04-14T16:01:00.000+08:00

time for me to move on.

friends only.

that's what you want, right?

you win.

2006-04-10T08:10:00.000+08:00

don't get me wrong, it's not that i don't want you back.

like ive said, you will be the last one till my NS.

we will be together, it's just a matter of time and whether you want me back or not.

there's hope for us, definitely.

so just don't forget everything.

don't forget about me.

2006-03-20T19:53:00.000+08:00

it's true, very true...

we may not be together now, but we may be ONE later...

2006-03-14T18:35:00.000+08:00

well...gotta move on i guess.

may she live happily with him...

the more...

2006-02-26T14:18:00.001+08:00

the more my eyes behold your face
the more my lips touch your skin
the more im still aware of your presence
the more i deeply fall in love with you

the more i remember all you did to me
the more your words fill up my heart
the more you make me trust in you
the more i constantly go insane for you

the more love road's winding and steeping
the more dangers are lurking around
the more mountains crumble and fall
the more i'll stay in love with you

the more you hold me tight to yourself
the more your eyes cross with mine
the more your hands caresses my thigh
the more my soul will melt for you

the more you solve the mystery of my heart
the more you remove the worries of my life
the more you reclaim memories of my past
the more you remain brand new in my heart

the more you gaze into my eyes
the more i feel the smile on your face
the more you dedicate yourself to me,
the more i love you so much

picking up the pieces...

...of my broken hearrt.

i'm missing you...badly.

2006-02-24T20:59:00.000+08:00

throbbing thoughts swell on mind
knocking on window of soul.
howling echo of evil words deafens the ears.
profound love tugs at heart
yearning arms ache for hug.
"i love you" spills out in helpless moment.
"i need you" was sent through the passing breeze
hoping it reaches you...somehow...
i'm missing you.

left the scene at 8.03pm...

will she leave me after that 1 week?

2006-02-23T20:13:00.000+08:00

could it be the
beginning of the end?

haizzz...

2006-02-21T15:01:00.000+08:00

dammit.

i wanna study, but i feel goddamn sleepy...
...shit, someone help me.

and darling, i cant get you off my mind...
...i miss you.

2006-02-15T22:44:00.000+08:00

i need to buck up. no, i MUST buck up. that's more appropriate. yeahh. exams is approaching fast, and is only 10 days away...goodness gracious me. less slacking please. so fiQue, its do OR die time...

my sayang and me...going on pretty well. so met her for a while last night, sitting in the moonlight. had quality time together. heheh. klah i dont know what eles to update...im just damn tired uhh. so yeah, gonna get some naps now, been having improper sleeps too many times. hahah. klah cheerios...

2006-02-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

damnnn...im dead tired. body aching all over. my shoulders could have dislocated, thanks to aggressive practise on softball pitching. well heck, all i can do is tahan the aches la huh...since nobody wants to massage me. hahahah. alaaa...i miss my honey too much to bother about the pain la... :D

my dear laalaa...i miss you so muchh. your suhwittt voice with that xxtra cuteness keep sounding in my ears 24/7. hmmm...i miss you real bad huh. khekhe.

what's this deep down inside
lurking in the depths of my heart
i feel it when i'm by your side.
for i hate to be apart

from an angel fallen from the sky.
i dream of day and night,
and wish i wouldn't have to cry
for every minute without you in my sight.

knowing you and i are going to amount to something.
even though i lay sound asleep,
i know everything we've been through hasn't been for nothing
because i know you're the one i need.

for i lay crying at night
for every minute i'm without your glowing light.

I MISS YOU

2006-02-05T16:47:00.000+08:00

i miss your eyes...
i miss your touch...
i miss your kisses...
i miss your lips...
i miss every inch of you...

enough said, i miss your everything laalaa dear!!

LAST NIGHT

2006-02-01T20:58:00.000+08:00

i just found the perfect soul, to fill the hole in my heart...

last night in bed,

i could not sleep.

thoughts of you

were in my head.

i wish you there with me,

to hold in my arms,

to feel the gentle breeze.

while thinking of you,

all stops

like a broken watch,

because you are my world.

no one can come between

what we share.

i was thinking of you

last night in bed

2005-12-05T22:19:00.000+08:00

could i? should i?

2005-10-09T23:02:00.000+08:00

now smoke-free

2005-09-23T11:13:00.000+08:00

i died.

mishhh my aNa...

2005-09-09T00:51:00.000+08:00

Hearrts Her Since:

11th Feb 2005

Expiry Date:

Not Applicable

all to blame...

2005-09-04T00:59:00.000+08:00

i'm a real paranoid. you're right, i am one.
i made a mistake. no, A LOT of mistakes.
i feel bad, REALLY BAD...to the fact that i actually hurt you!!
how i hate myself...i'm a BAD guy...damnnn!!
i've got myself to blame for all this. yes, and i plead guilty.
i realised my faults, and i'm very sorry.

please dear, do accept my apology...
give me a chance, to be a better me.
i will always be here,
waiting for you day and night
to return to me...

2005-08-29T20:54:00.000+08:00

my baby dear...
my hunnie...
my sweetheart...

i love you aNa dear...
i miss you...

very very badly...
haishhh.....

2005-08-27T17:47:00.000+08:00

wahlaooo...see beh suay!! i cant get to play soccer for at least 2 weeks siaaa, all because of my fractured hand...whoaaa shittt!! but hmmm...can use the time to study fer exams right. hahah. cant go out with my hunnie today...coz she sprained her ankle, feet all bandaged up...must sehati sejiwa mahhh!! khekhe. i hope there's nothing serious like mine. well, going to meet her tonight...we miss each other dearly!!

hmmmm...i think of shutting down this bloggie...coz i dont think people read it. so how?

2005-08-26T18:22:00.000+08:00

i'm getting stressed up...

exams in less than 2 weeks...

super-lot of things running in my mind...

but heck, who the hell cares...

haizzz.....

not my day...really not my day.....

2005-08-20T10:40:00.000+08:00

very suay...my goddamn right hand got REAL hurt yesterday. miss lock said its a suspected fracture...goodness gracious!! hopefully its nothing serious uhh...now having difficulty writing. damn that focker who rammed my hand.....

and then...i got disappointed. REAL disappointed...
well, obviously there's nothing i could do...
go alone...alone.....

YAYYY..!! 6 MONTHS..!!!

2005-08-11T20:10:00.000+08:00

wowww...6mths already!! time really flies huh!! well i'm loving her MORE each passing day.....

every night my spirit soars high
into the shimmering, celestial night sky
gliding past other spirits looking for love
who anxiously gaze down from above
searching frantically for the guiding light
that seeks them in the lonely night
i drift over the hills and valleys
through the dark streets and alleys
past the destitute and forlorn
who silently await the grace of dawn
hoping that it brings them happiness
and rescues them from this loneliness
from the distant astral plains
that are illuminated by comets' manes
i hear you calling out my name
as I instinctively do the same
i see your love's glowing aura
looking prettier than any flora
as our two souls gently collide
i feel your warmth deep inside
penetrating every atom of existence
whilst my spirit offers no resistance
until our two loving souls unite
glowing like the moon, Oh, so bright
while we dance amongst the stars
under the shadows of Venus and Mars
all our worries seem so far away
as we enjoy our nocturnal play
hoping the sun will never rise
to end our romance in the skies
just like Orpheus and Eurydice
journeying across the savage sea
with love being their only guide
as they drift perilously with the tide
hoping they will safely return
to once again let their passions burn
our love will always keep us together
and it will certainly last forever
the oppressive tyranny of time and distance
shall never make a difference
provided we stay in each other's heart
no force will ever keep us apart...

hmmm...hmmm...hmmm

2005-08-08T22:58:00.000+08:00

hmmm...exam is just 4 weeks from now. lotssa lots of things to catch up uhh...its a do-or-die situation now. so i have to...or MUST concentrate more in lectures and classes...which means LESS JOKES. damnnn...how i hate dull lessons. sumore there's a whole lot of projects to complete. Arggghhh...this will be tough shit mannn!!

and yesss...i'm missin my suhwittt darling sooo much siaaa!! haishhhhh...

what on earth is wrong with me...

2005-08-06T21:13:00.000+08:00

aarrgghh shit...something's bugging me...or i should say SOME THINGS. well nevermind...i guess its best to keep this to myself. c'mon fiQ...think positive...stay positive.
haizzz...dunno what's wrong with my brain lately...

where are the sweet kisses..?
where are the warm hugs..?
well seems like...
they've just poof...GONE.

2005-08-05T19:58:00.000+08:00

wuihhhhh...my BLOOD really boils when i read this coward's bloggie siaaa!! go read it yourself if you wanna know what's in...

if only i could get hold of him by his throat and rip his head apart.....

http://thesecondholocaust.blogspot.com

she's sooo SWEET..!!!

2005-07-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

aint my hunny-bunny sweet?

aint she adorable?

baby i love you.....

2005-07-17T08:51:00.000+08:00

there's no doubt..

i simply CAN'T live..

without her..

for she's my heart..

my sweetheart...

love you lots aNa dear...

SUAY DAY.....

2005-07-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

went to siloso...

and got my goddamn phone

STOLEN.....

*cursing like crazy*

2005-07-03T20:13:00.000+08:00

at times the days seemed so long, i thought I'd never make it through, then suddenly, out of a dream, i have met someone like you. i had locked up all my feelings and I'd thrown away the key, until your heart spoke a thousand words i knew were meant to be. when times turned rough and lonely, and despair fell upon my face, you comforted me and kept me safe in that loving special place.
you don't realize what you have and what you've done for me, but the way you managed to steal my heart is what has set me free. you've given me a feeling that no one else could ever change, your love has touched a place in me that i always found so strange. it's as if you were cut right out of a spell cast upon my heart, because the crazy thing about it is, i've loved you from the start.
no one in this wide world could touch the feelings we share; to the seconds i spend with you, nothing can compare. you've opened my eyes and heart just enough and let me live, you've changed my world with magic and the kindness that you give. my heart was broken, and I thought love was so far away, but you came into my life and showed me a better day.
like crystal clear blue waters or a magical sunset, that moment speaks a thousand words to which no price can be met. i wish i could just stop time and spend the whole night in your eyes, for when i'm with you there's a feeling even i cannot describe. although my heart holds painful memories that will never be erased, you touch me with a love so strong it hides that lonely place.
heartbreak, loss and misery were all I ever knew, until someone showed me happiness and that someone was you. your gentle words and loving arms lift me up when i am down, and, baby, with all you've done for me you've turned my world around. your love is so consistent, like the waves that break on shore, and with every day my love for you still grows, just more and more.
when broken dreams still fill my days and nothing's going right, you reassure me with your smile and give me back my sight. you sweep a spell across my heart, like a breeze across the sea, and you fill my world with beautiful dreams & feelings meant to be. the way you live, the way you love and even so much more, with every smile that you give, you're all i could ask for.
you are in every breath i take and in every tear i cry, you're in every star i wish upon up in the lonely sky. every day with you is heaven, like an angel from above, a million magic moments sent- to give you all my love. you are living proof that prayers and dreams really do come true, and i thank God for that special day he blessed my heart with you.
i could speak of a thousand promises or even bet my very soul,the rest of my life, i'll be touched with a feeling no one can control. fate, destiny or magic may be the reason that we met, but all i know is the days with you i never will forget. until the day i found you i never knew a love so true, but from today until eternity i swear I'll be loving you!